Coming Out of a Barren Season
I have been reading through 1 Samuel the past few weeks. Hannah’s story of years of barrenness have struck me. All of us have been through a season of barrenness. Maybe it wasn’t your womb that was necessarily barren, but possibly your barren season was something else. Have you experienced the pain of fruitlessness in your relationships, career or even your spiritual life? This past year of my life has been a barren season. A season where I prayed and prayed for the Lord to show up and He didn’t. I spent sleepless nights on my knees and hours in the car pouring my heart out to the Lord, yet, still, I received no answers.
Hannah went through years agonizing over her inability to conceive a baby, yet over and over, year after year, she continued to go to the temple and worship. Even in the midst of my pleading, I never believed that God was not hearing my request. I always knew He was close; listening, and waiting. The waiting is hard. The unknown is even harder.
When Your Future is Unclear
I am one who finds great joy in an itinerary, a calendar or a personal planner. Knowing my future eases my anxiety, so when the Lord is silent, especially on matters that concern my future, my ability to trust Him is shaken. My knees become wobbly and my hands tremble, because, maybe… just maybe “He won’t show up”. And, if that happens I will be the one left with a mess of misshapen pieces to put back together. Yet, over and over, He proves faithful in His own timing. (Rarely ever does the Lord work according to MY agenda… hmmm)
I am sure Hannah would have laughed, just as Sarai did, if someone told her she would someday have 4 children. The same would have happened to me if I was to find out that our family would be living in the heart of DC. I probably would have laughed and then thought you were having a moment of psychosis if you told me this a year ago.
Our Story Began Before our Conception
The point I am trying to make is that His timing is perfection. All those years, the Lord knew that Hannah would bear Samuel. He knew that Samuel would be one of the most powerful prophets of all time.He had to cultivate a spirit of trust in Hannah, a job that took years of brokenness, in order to raise up Samuel in His temple. Our story is the same.
Brokenness Brings Forth Obedience
So many times in scripture we find that brokenness brings forth obedience. Think of Joseph, Ruth, Paul and Hannah. Possibly your season of brokenness is preceding a crucial moment of obedience. I am positive that the barren season I experienced before our move to DC was a critical factor in our decision to move.
If you are in a barren season, cling tight to the hope that the Lord is the same yesterday, today and forever. (Hebrews 13:8) He is listening. The Lord is bringing forth growth and new life through you, but you must trust Him in the waiting.
This topic wasn’t what I set out to write today. Maybe someone needed to hear it, or maybe I needed to confirm it in myself. Regardless, there is always purpose to our story. Thank you for reading friends. <3